LOVE AND ELEGANCE

THOUSAND YEARS AGO, THERE LIVED TWO FRIENDS, NAMED "LOVE" AND "ELEGANCE" THEY BOTH WERE FAST FRIENDS. THEY PROMISED TO STAND BY EACH OTHER THROUGH THICK AND THIN.

LOVE TOLD ELEGANCE THAT SHE ALWAYS GOT HIM OUT OF HOOK. THEY WERE SO MUCH ATTACHED THAT NEVER SPENT EVEN A SECOND WITHOUT EACH OTHER. THAT'S WHY ELEGANCE ALWAYS LOOKED PINK. HE WAS SUCH A HUNK THAT EVERY ONE SHOWED AFFINITY TO HIM. AND LOVE WAS ALSO EYE-CANDIED. SHE ALWAYS DOLLED-UP FOR ELEGANCE.

PEOPLE ALWAYS TALKED PIFFLE ABOUT THEIR FRIENDSHIP. THEY SIMPERED IN FRONT OF LOVE AND ELEGANCE BUT SNEAKED BEFORE THEM. THEY DIDN'T MISS A TRICK TO MAKE THEM QUARRELSOME.

ONE NIGHT, THEY WERE SAT TOGETHER IN DARKNESS AND SAYED LATE. SUDDENLY, THE MOON CAME OUT. IT WAS REALLY LOOKING GRACEFUL. THEY BOTH WERE SHINED IN MOON-LIGHT.

IN THE MEAN-WHILE, LOVE STARTED PRAISING AND SHOWED HER ATTRACTION FOR MOON. WHEN ELGANCE LISTENED LOVE TO PRAISE MOON, HE BEARED MALICE. HE SCRATCHED HER EYES, AS HE WAS A HOT CUP OF TEA.

SINCE THEN,

"LOVE BECOME BLIND" 

AND

"ELEGANCE LOOKS ARROGANT"

"ELEGANCE" IS ATROCIOUS NOW-A-DAYS

AND

"LOVE" IS FINICKY. 

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Love Kills Each And Every Moment....................

This is the story of a guy and a gal who met in a language learning website.. So they knew each other gradually and later the guy fell in love with that gal... But the guy kept silent and held his emotions 'coz he was afraid to say and he didn't knew how the girl is gonna react.. And the girl had a pic on her profile. So once the guy asked if that is her pic? She replied boldly "yes it is". And she looked gorgeous in the pic. So the guy was more afraid. He knew that gal looks like a fairy and she has born with a silver spoon in her mouth as she told about her family...... And the guy knew the difference between the sky and the earth.. So he decided he will kill his love.. So they kept on chatting and the Guy used to miss her when she is not around.. He used to like each and everything about her.... He shared all his feelings and the life honestly.... The gal encouraged him. He felt good.. And he tried his best not to express his feelings but he did...... He said one day He likes her... She replied: sure, all the friends like each other... And the guy said: No, it's not that like but he loves her so much.. The gal refused... And the guy couldn't do anything but cried.. And now the bad time started................. And he met a gal on the same website and they became friends.. The guy told everything to that gal... She really felt bad for him... She told that don't give up.. U will get your love.. She encouraged all the time............... Once his dream girl said that she has told a lie, that the pic she has got in her profile that is not her own pic.. That's her friend... The guy was shocked.. Then she told to visit a different website to see the real pic.... The guy said "NO NEED" he still loves her...... She forced to see as she couldn't sleep just bcoz of her lie. She said to the guy that she cant believe that he loves her so much without seeing her so at least she wants to meet him once in her life. The guy went to the website checking the pic... And he found she is not like a fairy but she looks innocent and cute... He was angry bcoz of the lie but he told that he loved her not the beauty and he really did it... But the feeling of meeting once was fake and that was for the time being to make some1 feel that u lied but u r not a lier..... The guy was deeply in love... He expressed his feelings so many times.. But got the same reply... He was tired of banging his head against a brick wall... He started smoking.... He stopped calling home.... Once his mom called and the guy cried over the phone but didn't say what happened.... So finally he decided that he will kill all his feelings and emotions.. So he tried to go away and tried to forget... But all in vain... He couldn't forget her for a single moment... He wanted to get free from this all. Once an idea came to his mind for committing suicide but he thought about his family and knew that he needs to be brave for his family... Again he told the gal he can never forget her... And the gal got some tension and as he had some brain problem but she never told.. So she got admitted in the hospital.. Before going she sent a mail that she got brain problem bcoz of an accident what happend 4 years ago...... And finally the guy decided not to hurt her anymore by his love.... But he said he is ready to marry her with all those problems and issues what she has.. And he will never complaint... But she refused and he said "okay" be friends..... And they became friends.... But the guy cried so much Ist time in his life that now "how he is gonna react"... 'coz he knew it's not just about talk the talk but he will have to walk the talk.... He always loved her but he lied all the time after asking her to be friends... He started behaving happily 'coz he knew just bcoz of him she had to be admitted in the hospital... So there was happiness in the words but who can feel the heart what dies each and everyday?.... What cries all the time for listening a single reply that she "loves him too"? .well, he had to hide those feelings to make her happy... And he did... But sometimes he started behaving in a strange way... 'coz no one can handle two emotions at the same time.. He deleted all his friends from the friend list coz he needed just that gal. He tried his best to make her believe that he loves her by all mean.. But all in vain..... She wants him to marry a different gal... But she never asked what he likes... She never asks y he loves her... She never asks how do u feel accepting me as a friend and she never felt the heart but sometimes she felt the emotions... Gal says: she is to die.. But the guy is ready to give up all his life to live a single moment with her...... And he will love her till his last breathe.... Why the people see just those what we try to show?..... Why don't they understand that feelings can be shown in a different way but it cant be changed?......... Fuck this love what makes the life worst......... The gal knew that the guy started smoking.. She told stop smoking then she will talk, and the guy wants to be strong... He wonders y the hell should he leave smoking and who is the gal to order..... Go to the hell with the feeling-less thought... Leave this, leave that, forget this, do this... Fuck this all.....The guy is just crying and trying to forget.. And he will have to do this rest of the life........ So the guy knew why it is said that "the death kills once, but the love kills each and every moment to make u believe that this is your such mistake what cant be ignored or forgiven".

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Falling for Best Friend

I met this guy through my gay friend. i just asked what's his name and I didn't expect that my friend would give him my number to let him text me. I was so shocked when he text me that day, but my friend said that he's nice so i befriended him. OK, to make the story short, we get along just fine, we became closer as the days go by, we chat almost everyday.

              Then one day we went to the mall with our friends and suddenly I felt something different inside me when accidentally our eyes met, I'm definitely falling in love with him. I can't fool myself so I made up my mind that night that I will tell him about my feelings soon. But just that next afternoon, he told me that he broke up with his girlfriend that day so I end up comforting him. After that he thanked me and that's when he said that he's saying everything to me because he considered me as his best friend. OUCH! But that's the reality, he just see me as a friend and nothing more. I didn't get a chance to tell him about my feelings.

                                                                           Two years have passed and we're still close friends, comforting him whenever he's heartbroken and hiding my one-way love. 

One afternoon this march, he called me and asked me about my one girl friend, I was not in a good mood that day because of my upcoming exam result that's concerning my graduation. So I just said I don't want to talk about anyone but he insisted on asking. I get pissed off and said, "OK I'll just give you her number for you to shut up." But then he said, "Aw, no need. It seems someone's getting jealous.." 

I got the biggest shock of my life. I didn't know that he know even a little about my feelings for him. But I don't want to give him a hint so I just said "who?" Then he changed the topic. That's what I love about him. Even though he knows something, he never get to embarrass me. i didn't say anything about this but I know that I'm quite obvious, so to get away from that issue, I helped him. My friend became his girlfriend after a month.

                                                                                                                             My other friends who know my REAL feelings always ask me why I did that. They often get angry with me because of my "katangahan". 

Yes, I admit that I want him for myself. But not every time, you should always think of yourself. For me, it's much better to think first of the consequences of your actions. 

What If I confess my feelings for him and then after he avoids me? I still want him to be my best friend. 

But then I saw them one day at the mall very sweet and I felt my heart crushed right that very moment. I realized that nothing has changed about my feelings so i started to avoid them as much as I can and they noticed it. 

When we saw each other at our common friend's birthday just this May, I was told that he was not going so I went there. But there he was and he saw me so I can't escape anymore.

He asked me, "What happened? Why are you avoiding me?" Of course I denied and said that I was just busy for the upcoming board exam. Although not convinced, he wished me luck, I nodded and started to walking. Just like that and he doesn't even tried to stop me to ask me what's wrong. I was fighting my tears when I went home. I cried myself to sleep that night especially when I saw those pictures that they posted at FB in the party earlier. 

That's when it struck me. It's the REALITY.

They're so happy with each other now and I should accept that FACT. 

We haven't talked until now. That's the last time we talked. He tried to call me last month but I didn't answer. He texted me but I didn't text back. Maybe he got tired trying to reach me so he stopped.

             I know time will come that we will be okay just like before but I still don't know when. 

I just wanna share my story to tell you guys never to attach yourself, never to assume and never to fall for your best friend because it's the worst thing you'll ever experience.

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Don't wait to express your feelings...

It all started when I was 6 years old. While I was playing outside on my farm in California, I met a boy. He was an average kindof boy who teased you and then you chased them and beat them up. After that first meeting in which I beat him up we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. That only lasted for a little while though. We would meet at the fence all the timeand we were always together. I would tell him all my secrets. He was quite very quiet he would just listen to what I had to say. I found him easy to talk to and I could talk to him about everything. In school we had separate friends but when we got home we would always talk about what happened in school. One day I said to him that a guy I liked hurt me and broke my heart. He just comforted me and said everything would be okay. He gave me words of encouragement and helped me get over him. I was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But I knew that there was something else about him that I liked. I thought of it that night and figured it was just a friend kinda thing that I was feeling. All through high school and even through graduation we're always together and of course I thought of it as being friends. But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently. On graduation nighteven though we had different dates to the prom I wanted to be with him. That night after everybody went home I went to his house and wanted to tell him that I wanted to see him. Well, that night was my big chance and all I did was just sit there with him watching the stars and talking about what I was going to do and what he was going to do. I looked into his eyes and listened to him talk about what his dream was. How he wanted to get married and settle down. He said how he wanted to be rich and successful. All I could do was to tell him my dream and cuddle next to him. I went home hurting because I didn't tell him how I was feeling. I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved him but I was too scared and frightened. I let my feelings go and told myself that someday I would tell him just how I felt. All through college I wanted to tell him but he always had someone with him. After graduation he got a job in New York, I was happy for him but at the same time I was sad to see him go. I was sad also because I didn't tell him how I felt. But I couldn't let him know now that he was leaving for his big job. So I just kept it to myself and watched him go on the plane. I cried as I hugged him for what I felt was going to be the last time. I went home that night and cried my eyes out. I felt hurt that I didn't tell him what I had inside my heart. Well, I got a job as a secretary and then worked my way to a computer analyst. I was proud of what I had accomplished. One day I got a letter with an invitation to a marriage. It was from him, I was happy and sad at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and that we could only be friends. I went to the wedding the next month. It was a big occasion. The big church wedding and the reception at the hotel. I met the bride and of course him. I fell in love one more time. But I held back so it wouldn't spoil what should be the happiest day in his life. I tried to have fun that night but it was killing me inside watching him being so happy and me trying to be happy covering up my sadness tears inside of me. I left New York feeling that I did the right thing. Before I left on the flight, he came running out of nowhere and said his good-byes and how he was very happy to see me. I came home and just tried to forget about what went on in New York. I had to go on with my life. As the years went on, we wrote to each other on what was going on and how he had missed talking to me. On one occasion he never wrote back to me at all. I was getting worried as to why he hadn't written anything for a long time after I had already written 6 letters to him. Well, just when everything seemed hopeless and sad in my life, I got a note that said: "meet me at the fence where we used to talk about things". I went and saw him there. I was happy to see him, but he was heart broken and sad inside. We hugged until we couldn't breathe anymore. Then he told me about the divorce and why he hadn't written for a long time. He cried until he couldn't cry anymore. Finally, we went back to the house and talked and laughed about what I had been going and to catch up on old times. But in all of this, I couldn't tell him how I felt about him. In the days that followed, he had fun and forgot about all his problem and his divorce. I fell in love again with him. When it came time for him to leave back to New York, I went to see him off and cried. I hated to see him leave. He promised to see me every time he could get a vacation. I couldn't wait for him to come so I could be with him. We would always have fun when we were together. One day he didn't show up like he said he would. I figured that he might have been busy. The days turned into months and I just forgot about it. Then I got a call one day from a lawyer in New York. The lawyer said that he had died in a car accident going to the airport. And that it took this long till everything was settled. It broke my heart. I was shocked about what took place. Now I knew why he didn't come that day. Again, I was heart broken. I cried that night, cried tears of sadness andheartache. Asking questions why did this happen to a kind guy like him? I gathered my things and went to New York for the reading of his will. Of course, things were given to his family and his ex-wife. I finally got to meet her since the last time we met at the wedding.She explained to me how he was and how he always provided. But he was always unhappy. She would always try everything but she couldn't get him happy, as he was that night at their wedding. When the will was read, the one thing that was given to me was a diary. It was a dairy that of his life. I cried as it was given to me... As I flew on the plane I remembered the good times that we had together. I started reading the diary and what was written. The diary was started with the day we first met. I read on till I started to cry. The diary told of him saying that he had fallen in love with me that day I was heart broken. But he was too afraid to tell me what he had felt. That is why he was so quiet and liked to listen to me. It told of how he wanted to tell me so many times, but was too afraid to say anything. It told of when he went to New York and fell in love with another. How the happiest time he had was seeing me and dancing with me at the wedding. He said he imagined it was our wedding. How he was always unhappy till he had no choice but to divorce his wife. How the best time in his life was to read the letters written to him by me. Finally, the diary ended when it said, "today I will tell her I love her". It was the day he was killed. The day I was going to finally find out what was really in his heart.

If you love someone, don't wait till tomorrow to tell him/her. Maybe that next day will never come at all.

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A couple's heartbreak (I still love you)

A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage. They were a loving couple and the boy was the apple of their eyes. When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for work so he asked the wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard. The mother, preoccupied in the kitchen, totally forgot the matter. The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle and, fascinated with its color, drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages. When the child collapsed, the mother hurried him to the hospital, where he died.The mother was stunned. She was terrified how to face her husband. When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just four words.

What do you think were the four words?

The husband just said "I Love You Darling"

                                                                       The husband's totally unexpected reaction is proactive behavior. The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life. There is no point in finding fault with the mother. Besides, if only he have taken time to keep the bottle away, this will not have happened. No point in attaching blame. She had also lost her only child. What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her.

                                                                                                   Sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. We miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other support. After all, shouldn't forgiving someone we love bethe easiest thing in the world to do? Treasure what you have. Don't multiply pain, anguish and suffering by holding on to forgiveness. If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world.

Take off all your envies, jealousies, unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears and you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think..

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The Salty Coffee...........

                                     He met her at a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he was so normal, nobody paid attention to him. At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised but due to being polite, she promised. They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, and she thought to herself, "Please, let me go home..."  Suddenly he asked the waiter, "Would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee." Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously, "Why you have this hobby?" He replied, "When I was a little boy, I lived near the sea, I liked playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there." While saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched. That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart. A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home... Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family.That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story. They continued to date. She found that actually he was the man who meets all her demands; he was tolerance, kind heart, warm, careful. He was such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee! Then the story was just like every beautiful love story, the princess married to the prince,and then they were living the happy life... And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked it.

                                                                                       After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said, "My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life's lie. This was the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead. I never thought that could be the start ofour communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised notto lie to you for anything... Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth, I don't like the salty coffee, what astrange bad taste... But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know youand have you for my whole life, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again." Her tears made the letter totally wet. Someday, someone asked her, "What's the taste of salty coffee?" She replied, "It's sweet."

Pass this to everyone because love is not to forget but to forgive, not to see but understand, not to hear but to listen, not to let go but HOLD ON!!!!

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A girl who felt ignored....

This story is about a girl who felt ignored..
I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin.
I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club, I found out that I fell in love with him.
Before the trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him.
And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways.
I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there was so many other girls.
To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl...
"Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked.
"I can't"
"Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment grabbing me.
"No... I am going to meet a friend..."
He was always like that.
He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend.
The word 'love' only came out of my mouth.
Since I knew him, I had never heard I'm say 'I love you' before.
To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all.
He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 1O0 days...2O0 days...
Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why...
Then one day...
Me: Um, Jin, I...
Jin: What...don't drag, just say...
Me: I love you.
Jin: ...........you.....um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one.
There were many....
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.
When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.
But... lunch passed, dinner passed...and soon the sky was dark... he still didn't call.
It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep.
He told me to come out of the house.
Still. I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin...
Jin: Here...take this...
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What's this?
Jin: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now.
I'm going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday.
He turned around and walked away like nothing had happened.
Then I shouted...
"Wait..."
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me...
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung onto him.
But he just said simple cold words and left.
"I don't want to say...that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else."
That was what he said. Then ran off...
My legs felt numb...and I collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily...
How could he...
I felt that...
Maybe he is not the right guy for me...
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying.
He didn't call me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house.
That's how those dolls piled up in my room... everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school.
But what made the pain resurface was that.... I saw him on a street...with another girl...
He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me...as he touched the doll...
I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell...
Why did he gave these to me...
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls...
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.
I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.
I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that....its going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happened and joking around.
Soon, he held out the doll as usual...
Me: I don't need it.
Jin: What....why...
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes were very shaky.
"I'm sorry" He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll...
"You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!"
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then...
Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
"Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted...
But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
"Jin, move!"
HONK~!!!
"Boom!" That sound, so terrifying.
That's how he went away from me.
That's how he went away without evening opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him...
And after spending two months like a crazy person...
I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out.
I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days... when we were in love...
"One...two... three..."
That was how... I started to count the dolls...
"Four hundred and eighty four... four hundred and eighty five..."
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.
I hugged it tightly, then suddenly...
"I love you~, I love you~"
I dropped the dolls, shocked.
"I....lo..ve...you??"
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
"I love you~ I love you~"
It can't be!
I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
Those words came out non-stop.
I...love you...
Why didn't I realize that.....
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didn't I realize that he love me this much...
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road.
It had his blood stain on it.
The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much...
"Jo...Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't say I love you.... Um... since I was too shy... If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that i love you... everyday... till I die... Jo... I love you..."
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now?
He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute...
For that... and for that reason... to me... it became courage... to live a beautiful life..

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